Keeping House

I always dreamed about being a wife and mother. Well not always, but ever since I started dating Rob I did. I'd dream about how I'd keep the house spotless, bake something at least once a week, etc etc etc. Well, now that I am a wife and mother, none of that has happened. For instance, Molly has been napping for the past hour and instead of using that time to clean up some of this extremely messy apartment, I've used it to sit on the couch, and mindlessly look around online. There's dirty laundry that needs to be washed, clean laundry that needs to be put away, dishes to be unloaded from the dishwasher and more put in, and just general clutter that needs to be thrown or put away. I feel like ever since getting my horrible lack of energy from being pregnant, I never got my energy back, and it's 9 months later. I realize that I have a very mobile child and all, but geez. I'm a young mother, I should have more energy than this! When I really think about it, I think my problem is my thyroid. I have hypothyroidism, and I haven't taken my medicine for it in a loooong time. I know I need to go get my levels checked and a new prescription, but that involves getting a primary care giver (my ob was that while pregnant and since I haven't needed to go to the doctor I never switched it), making an appointment, and then actually going. Sure, I'll get bursts of energy and work on something, but for the majority of the time, we live in a mess, and I HATE it. But what do I do about it? Nothing. I feel like a terrible wife for it too. Since Rob works so hard so I can stay home, I feel it's my obligation to take care of the home, and I've been failing at that job. I usually try to use Molly's naps as my down time, since when she's awake I'm obviously not going to get any of that, but then I feel lazy for not using that time more wisely. One day I'll be able to keep the home clean and tidy....one day...