Rainy Day

Where did the beautiful weather go??? It'll be nice for a day here, and the next day turns to rain and overcast. Although I guess that's to be expected when you live in the "north country." Haven't really done too much today. Rob is on staff duty tonight so that stinks. He's coming home for dinner though, but he's not sure when that will be. I really hope Molly sleeps tonight like she did last night. I don't want to deal with a crying baby all night like she was last time he was gone. Either way though, I'll get through it. At least I'll get some sleep, Rob wont get to sleep again until tomorrow night. And then he has to do staff duty again all day Saturday, and then he's in the field all next week :-( Since he'll be gone all next week, I'm going to visit my parents for a few days. There's no way I could deal with being all by myself all week with Molly. If she were older and things were easier, I'd probably be able to manage, aside from the loneliness.

As for the breastfeeding, things didn't go as great since being home as they did at the lactation consultant yesterday. Since my letdown is so fast, if I don't have the shield on, she just lets it drip into her mouth instead of latching on. And since it makes me impatient and frustrated (which are not good things to be when breastfeeding) I've resorted to using the shield. It kind of makes me feel like a failure for not being able to calm myself down and be more patient for her to try and get her right on me, instead of resorting to the shield. Thankfully, it hasn't seemed to affect my supply at all yet, so I don't feel in danger of that yet. So hopefully I'll either find the patience by Thursday to figure it out on my own, or will need her help some more then.

She's been sleeping pretty well. Since she's being more alert it takes her longer to fall asleep. And I've been co-sleeping with her as well. It's not something I wanted to do, but sometimes it's the only way she'll sleep. She will sleep in her pack 'n' play, but once she falls asleep next to me, I'm too scared to move her for fear she'll wake up. I was also scared to co-sleep due to any risks that would come with it, but there haven't been any problems so far. Although I would like her to sleep in the pnp more often just so that I could get in more comfortable positions to sleep, having her next to me at least allows me to sleep.

Also today I bought her some headbands with bows on them. I wasn't sure if I wanted to put them on her before she was born, but now that she's here I thought they'd look cute on her. And man, she looks adorable with them on!! This is a bad discovery for me because now I'll probably go bow crazy. Here's a picture of my beautiful little girl:

She was squirming around so it's not the best angle, but she's got a cute look on her face.